Dear Internet,
First of all, I want to say that I’m proud of you. I’ve been thinking about it, and every single person I talk to on a regular basis has really gotten his or her shit together in 2008. Good for you, really. I’m proud of my friends and I think that if this weren’t the worst year of my life, it would probably be the best.
That’s the weird thing—since my dad died, I am actually a happier person. I am also an angrier person, and I feel like maybe more of a person, at least emotionally. I can’t detect any progress whatsoever in my mourning in the last 4 months…I still have random crying fits in the shower and while reading history books and other times when it seems totally nonsensical, and that’s frustrating and scary for me, but at the same time I have to be grateful for how much
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